The Light Day #19

I'm so tired of never being enough.
There is always someone or something
that is better, prettier, faster.
More sparkly.. more anything.
For once.
Just once,
I would like to be the one that fulfills
every need.
I don't approve
of secrets.
I don't approve of hidden thoughts.
I don't approve of anything
that doesn't make us as close
as we could possibly be.
if you have to hide your true desires and passions
from the one you claim
to love,
How is that love?
I have never lied
I have always been upfront
and overly honest
about my feelings
my passion
my desires
my cares.
It is both humbling and heartbreaking
to know that you are
being mislead and
that your
solidity is not matched.
Why should I stay around?
I have already expressed my feels
in this regard...
your silent choice
speaks volumes.
Your lies and inconsistencies
have all been brought to
the light.

and who's going to
want me
in the end
when I've
collapsed
from exhaustion
all used up
spent
from
giving out
the best parts of me?

I promised myself
I'd be kind to my heart.
That I'd do
everything right.
This time.
and forever more.
Because I know
what I deserve
is much bigger and greater
than what I have
now.
I pushed everyone else
out
and made room in my
heart and soul
for you.
All I needed was
your truths.
Betrayed again,
yet no more the victim.

selfish

i'm sitting here feeling sorry for myself
it feels like no one gives a shit
i do so much for everyone in my life
just once i want one person to
return the favour.

i've never asked you
for perfection,
and i never will.
so why the deception?
must be your type
of cheap thrill.

here and now

so amazed by what you've become
to me.
everything i've ever wanted
yet too afraid
to even hope that it could be you.
you're saying all the right things
and somehow, our paths
have become one.
how can this be?
i was so ready
for it to be over
and now
i pray it lasts forever...

and i wonder

it's so easy..

i'm noticing all of these little things

that i want to do

that seem so attainable

i can't help but wonder

is it because of you?

would i be as happy

otherwise?

Slip Slide Melding

nothing can compare
to the way it feels
when you slip
when you slide
when you meld into me.

it's like a perfect fit.

the way you taunt
the way you tease
but never ever
fail to please.

wrapping my lips
around the source
using my tongue
loving the way
you moan
excited by the way you
force
your passion into me

the way i taunt
the way i tease
yet never ever
fail to please.

let it be me

i am craving
something that i have never had.
i don't want to be owned
merely shown
what it means to belong
i want to be the only person that
can drive away the blues
i want it to be me
that someone's arms reach for in their sleep
to be a muse
the safe for all secrets to keep
let it be me...